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Sunday, June 29, 2008
  Amusement from 2 polarities.
Amusement #1 from the positive polarity:

I burrowed a book written by Czechoslovakian author called Milan Kundera, called Immortality, since I saw my sister had read stuff of his and I trust her taste in expanding my circle of reading. I did not regret it and the very first chapter of it got me hooked already. It reminded me acutely of Chuck Palahniuk's postmodernist style. Without me rambling, here's a paragraph that made me laughed.

"As a little girl, Agnes used to go for walks with her father and once she asked him whether he believed in God. Father answered: "I believe in the Creator's computer." This answer was so peculiar that the child remembered it. The word computer was peculiar, and so was the word Creator, for Father would never say God but always Creator as if he wanted to limit God's significance to his engineering activity. The Creator's computer: but how could a person communicate with a computer? So she asked her father whether he ever prayed. He said: "That would be like praying to Edison when a lightbulb burns out."

HAHAHA! Brilliant writing. I have found a new favorite writer. ^_^

Amusement # 2 from the negative polarity:

Now I have to use a complete different mindset to approach this second section of the entry. *gets serious*

Okay, so I was on my usual Saturday night stroll with a good friend along Esplanade Park/Merlion region/Esplanade Bays, with a light conversation going on about (my poor) musical ability. I was craving for my weekly fix of Starbucks frapp, so we were walking down towards the outlet underneath the bridge near the Merlion structure. Intrigued why is there such a huge crowd at that area there (it's usually empty there), we walked on, then saw a group of policemen there with some equipments on the floor. I initially thought it might be some silly metalhead/punk fight or something juvenile, since it was the common meeting ground for them. Then I saw a gang of civil defense officers pulling something out of the river via a thick cord. I know what happened.

Someone drowned.

I got my frapp (it was a Grande! ^_^) despite the commotion and found myself trapped by the (efficiently-placed) "Police" boundary tape, sat down and watched on to the corpse-fishing commotion. Knowing inside me that that poor fellow had little chance of coming out alive, I recited some mantras (Om Mani Padme Hum, if you are wondering) for him/her and hoped it will help the situation for the soul somehow.

After a few minutes, the body is out and placed on the orange canvas stretcher thingy and the paramedics did something to the body which I am unsure of. I could clearly see the midsection of the corpse. He wasn't wearing a shirt and only donned a sports shorts. Pale in complexion and clearly not breathing, the whole atmosphere of the place dimmed down, with typical Singaporeans looking on with intrigue yet a sense of fear on their equally typical faces. LOL. My friend, being the curious one, went to the other side of the area condoned off, he later reported that the corpse was foaming at the mouth. I am to fully confirm that that body is a corpse now.

I finished my frapp and the commotion was cleared, with a puddle of river water on the pavement - a dark reminiscent of the watery grave that the victim ended his last minutes writhing in a plea for a quicker end to his life or questioning why his life had to end so abruptly, at such a dodgy location? I have no answers for that question.

It created a very macabre afterthought in me that reminded me after I left the area. Prior to reaching to the Starbucks outlet, I heard the sirens of an ambulance and I told my friend, "Oh! Someone's dying!", in a joking manner. It was a thing/one-liner I ganked from Kevin, anyway. Now I think back and say, "Damn, that's eerie." *shivers*
 
Comments:
i'm glad you think i have good taste but i'm not as intellectual as you give me credit for. i didn't finish reading the book because it was too whiny. haha.

and by the way, i think being single is better than being attached and miserable.

honestly, if i could, i would take away all the guys i went out with, and just waited for Ian.

how do i say. i was impatient and was out looking for something, but i never found it with any of the guys i went out with, not joseph either.

all you experiences alone, and with others, all lead towards the, cheesy as it sounds, greatest experience.

but of course i felt pretty shitty sometimes when i was always doing stuff by myself.

perhaps you should read The Seventh Letter by Rainer Maria Rilke. =) that essay helped me quite a bit.
 
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Wow, it's awesome to see such a busy person commenting on my blog entry. :P

Yes, you do have great taste. Not sure of how you judge intelligence, but you do appear to be so in the eyes of a younger sibling. At least when compared with the general public out there. =)

This Kundera book is pretty good, it has its amusing moments to keep me interested.

I get what are you trying to convey about being single vs trying to get attached for the sake of it. I guess you summed up what are the pros and cons of each side already. I especially hate it on weekends... I am losing interest in my card-flourishing meetups recently, so it can get quite dull for me most of the time. It sucks. I have came to the point that I believe I could no longer find joy in doing something (even metal music, I listen to it and I feel nothing!)... It's an existentialist crisis going inside me now. >_>

I just can't articulate that weird sense of emptiness within me nowadays. It's like one huge annoying knot. Gah.

On your recommendation, Rilke? Thought he is an nihilist of sorts? Lol. Nonetheless, I'd check that essay out and see what it can offer to me.

In the meantime, have ''fun'' with your recordings! Can't wait for your debut CD really. Hardly see you awake at home nowadays!

- The Other Ling. ;)
 
Just read it: I guess this paragraph sums up the whole thing just nice.

"For one human being to love another human being: that is perhaps the most difficult task that has been entrusted to us, the ultimate task, the final test and proof, the work for which all other work is merely preparation. That is why young people, who are beginners in everything, are not yet capable of love: it is something they must learn. With their whole being, with all their forces, gathered around their solitary, anxious, upward-beating heart, they must learn to love. But learning-time is always a long, secluded time, and therefore loving, for a long time ahead and far on into life, is: solitude, a heightened and deepened kind of aloneness for the person who loves."

It does make sense... =)
 
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