Friday, September 28, 2007
I'd go to a forest and sit still.

After reading Vika's latest blog entry, I realised I need solitude, at the very moment, really badly too. All the people poking around me, talking far too much for anybody's health (what's worse is what they said are not at all constructive) and the noises made by the phone. Someone shouldn't have invented the damn phone. The noises it create are absolutely nerve-whacking, worse than the sound of "Mathematics", anyway. Last but not least, the various absurdities of the humankind and its ugly society.

Being such a hopeless nihilist-cum-misanthrope, like yours ghouly, do not see the point of chasing after achieving the status of a ''successful JC student who only knows their lecture notes (that will define him as a productive citizen or not in his later life)". It's so ridiculous. I have came to a grand conclusion that a mere formal education do not and will not bring any form of happiness as we, humans, are such flagrant assholes will never be, in anyway, contented. Sigh.

Time, if you decide to be kind, please do fast forward to 2 months later. I thank you profusely.

I just want to walk in some thick, primary forests with even thicker canopies, with Burzum's Tohmet playing in my mp3, then settling down at the clearing or beside a fjord/lake (dreamy sigh, I can only visualise such intense beauty), and looking up into the night's sky, observing the stars. How wholesomely appealing. Nature's awe. So capitvating. Sigh sigh.

Nobody told me formal education was supposed to bring happiness. I always thought it's job was to educate us to be able to make informed decisions. Every government's school system enables reproduction of the current political system. Free informed thinkers enable democracy... Or so I'm told.

Feelings wise, I'm pretty sure school is supposed to make you miserable. I liked a quote from Little Miss Sunshine that goes:
[About Proust]
"Yeah. French writer. Total loser. Never had a real job. Unrequited love affairs. Gay. Spent 20 years writing a book almost no one reads. But he's also probably the greatest writer since Shakespeare. Anyway, he uh... he gets down to the end of his life, and he looks back and decides that all those years he suffered, Those were the best years of his life, 'cause they made him who he was. All those years he was happy? You know, total waste. Didn't learn a thing. So, if you sleep until you're 18... Ah, think of the suffering you're gonna miss. I mean high school? High school-those are your prime suffering years. You don't get better suffering than that. "

Friends and stuff you can do outside of school is supposed to make you happy. School is just there so you have a basis for comparison, and you appreciate the spare time more. :P
First of all, I must say I love shit-long comments, they look good. Thanks.

Next, hmm, yes, high school or junior college in my case, is the worst shit anyone could endure, I agree to a full extent.

One friend of me, namely Jaspas, once said this, regarding on working life, "Imagine you work full time in the office, 8 to 5pm. Weekends must felt like heaven." As true as it may be, it is still sad. Pardon my dark viewpoint, I am feeling exceptionally nihilistic recently. Haha.
"successful JC student who only knows their lecture notes (that will define him as a productive citizen or not in his later life)". It's so ridiculous. I have came to a grand conclusion that a mere formal education do not and will not bring any form of happiness as we, humans, are such flagrant assholes will never be, in anyway, contented. Sigh."

As a previous commenter has a said, a formal education is not to bring you happiness.

The pursuit of happiness is a futile pursuit that humans engage in almost automatically--we cannot pull ourselves out of it, or choose not to pursue gratification. IF we are able to stop pursuing happiness, then we become happy? If we obtain one thing that brings us gratification, the same thing does not gratify you as much anymore if you do it repeatedly, day after day, every day. Do you see where this logic is flawed? The whole concept of happiness is inherently flawed.

Life is futile, ultimately. This does not mean anything to me. Life is life. Trying to give it meaning is like trying to feel high all the time. Its simply an exercise doomed to fail.

So you're 18. So you realise life is futile. So you think school is meaningless.

What do you think you want to do about this realisation?

Blog about it, and whine?
Hello anonymous. Thank you for your input.

Isn't the whole purpose of keeping a blog is to whine about the problems in life and all the other trivial matters in life? Lol. I do what I want with this journal, thank you.

I do know my logic is flawed, mind you, I wrote this post on sheer impulse.

Not that I am totally pessimistic about the processes of life. I just think that the general public should be offered an alternative and wider viewpoint that studies aren't the only way out to be inherently satisfied. There are bound to be other pursuits that will please ourselves with. I am just disgusted by the blind idea that studies = good life, good person, as much as it is true. I do hope you get what I am putting forth.

This is just a personal blog, and I am merely providing my humble perspective into life, therefore, it is not at all perfect.

Thanks for even reading, nonetheless. I appreciate your anonymous presence.
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And also, I must add,

thoughts must be challenged to

a) become more sophisticated
b) become a Truth

Your thoughts must not go unchallenged, or they will only be useless thoughts, without any intellectual value, in that sense.

I hope you understand what I'm saying.

But since this is your blog, like you said, whine ahead.

Its funny, because you "whine" while quoting intellectual texts. Which will lead me to read and interpret your blog "intellectually".

If you're a typical bimbo who goes, "Damn, Mango sale so crowded! Zomg, zomg." Then I really wouldn't care about your blog, much less read it.

Haha, so it was indeed you who was previously anonymous. I figured. Yes, I do know I am not intellectually matured yet, I am still in the amidst of ''seeking''. Bear with my angsty and maybe pointless rants.

I am glad there's some form of debate or sorts here, otherwise it will be so boring, where people just tag "Hello! Sup?" and leave the blog. That, I thank you.
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